Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Reading, Reading, Reading

I came into this IP process ready to explore the idea of layering (concepts and materials, specifically). I’ve made a lot of work about the body (my body) but have focused mostly on its physical capabilities. I would like to make this image-ability of the physical body more complex. Introducing the connection between internal bodily systems and exterior physical expression should add a new element to my study. The idea of illustrating an unseen process or thing on the most natural, visible and malleable canvas I can think of (skin) has really got me thinking. I am no medical student and the idea of learning about anatomical processes felt incredibly daunting. How should I go about choosing a system to illustrate and explore if I don’t know the first thing about…anything? I decided to start reading and researching in order to find my way.

This whole reading kick I’ve been on started with this article I read in my Global Perspectives to Gender, Health and Reproduction class called “Medical Metaphors: Menstruation & Menopause” by Emily Martin. Within the historical context of menstruation and menopause, Martin describes how the systems inside female body were learned and understood. The historical solution to interpreting bodily processes was turning them in to metaphors, usually based on cultural constructs. For example, at the time of the industrial revolution, the body became a model of the “progressive” society. The imagery used to describe the biochemistry of human anatomy was that of a factory. I decided after completing this reading that I wanted to know more about the history of metaphorically representing the inter-workings of the body. I spent the beginning of this week reading Susan Sontag’s Illness as Metaphor, which added interesting facets to my understanding of the historical practice of giving bodily processes specific meanings and significance. In her essay, Sontag explores the popular metaphors created around different illnesses, she also uncovers historical ideas about illness and disease: they were thought to be unnatural processes. So now my exploration is a bit more complex: historically, society has determined some bodily processes to be “natural” and others “unnatural” and symbols and special meaning have been assigned to both.

I’ve been listing the socially constructed metaphors presented in both pieces in my studio. A lot of the meanings derived from the processes under consideration in these two documents were contrived based on the outward expression and appearance of the body. For example, cancer, an illness Sontag explores at great length, was considered, historically to affect people who did not show any outward emotion or expression. In her article, Martin also introduces the historical idea of the body as a bank. While it was widely accepted that the body’s processes operated to keep the body balanced, women were considered “spenders” because of the process of menstruation.

At this point in my conceptual exploration, I feel like the best way to think about the relationship between hidden systems and the physical body is to create my own metaphor. Today in studio, Michael suggested that I start idea mapping for different internal systems and organs in order to specify what relationship I am going to visually explore. I have also started to research artists who have explored anatomy in their work including Kiki Smith. I was especially drawn to her 1992 piece “Sueño" and 1993 "Veins and Arteries" where she illustrates internal systems outside of the human body.





Week of September 28th



Sunday, September 27, 2009

Sourcing Inspiration

Presence of Contentment

I believe the idea of the “tortured artist” has been ingrained as a universal belief regarding creative people. Artists and musicians throughout history have become almost as famous for their works of art as they have for the dark elements of their public (and private) personas. Weather artists are haunted by psychological or drug related issues, they are often thought to derive their creativity and genius from the misery. I don’t buy it. When I’m unhappy or there is an absence of contentment in my life I freeze, I truly cease to think and feel the things that inspire me to create, let alone want to create. Contentment in my life and myself is in fact what drives me to create visual work and explore and discover new ideas. When I don’t feel content or happy with myself, I really don’t even bother getting out of bed.

Presence of Rest

I respond really well to physical comforts. When my body feels good my mind follows suit. Growing up, I was a really serious athlete and some of my most vivid memories of my childhood years include moments in various competitions or practices. One of the most amazing feelings I have ever experienced is the realization of my own physical capability. I have these picture perfect memories of isolated moments half way through an eight mile run or crew race where I would float outside of my body and the physical task at hand and realize the implications of my physical performance. My strong, healthy body was accomplishing something great because of the care and consideration I had it with for days and weeks and months. Great things can happen when you treat yourself right. I always chose to feel physically (and mentally) rested.

Presence of Anger

I wasn’t going to choose to respond to this comparison. I find it important for my own growth to stay positive. Good energy never fails; I believe that you get back exactly what you put out in the world. Inspiration is harder for me to find when I have to wade through the transformative haze that negative thoughts and feelings cast. So, this choice of anger and pity for me was a bit like choosing between apples and apples. Then I started thinking about the kinds of negative energy you can give out and the reactions these negative feelings induce. Pity to me is more of a passive emotion, leaving a person withdrawn, sad, and immobile. Anger on the other hand, is more of an active emotion, with a motivational factor. Anger, not pity has inspired and driven many cultural movements, historic revolutions and has undoubtedly changed the course of history.

Presence of Mystery

Over the past few years I’ve honed in on an effective creative process. I remember feeling suffocated the first semester of freshman year, as my class schedule was limited to classes in the School of Art and Design. I quickly learned that in order to feel inspirited and excited to create new work I needed to diversify the information I was learning about. The more subjects I explored throughout the University, the more complex the content of my work has become. I am motivated to create work biased on new information I can gather and uncover from studying all academic fields.

Presence of Sobriety

There has been a history of substance abuse in my family and in the lives of some of my close friends. For me, mind altering substances represent more of a threat than a freedom. I’ve witnessed the course of peoples lives completely change based on reliance and dependency. I take solace in my innate joy and excitement in creating visual objects. The idea of wanting or needing a substance to make me engage in my work seems to cheapen and almost mock my visceral connection to create.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

I'm searching for my mainline
I said c-c-c-couldn't hit it sideways
I said c-c-c-c-c-c-couldn't hit it sideways
Ah do it do it just su-su-su-suck
That's ju-ju-just excellente
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